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7 more months of this?!?
May. 19th, 2011 09:48 amI am sick to my stomach in some form or another every damn day, all day. I seriously hope this is a first trimester thing because I can't handle 7 more months of this. I have heart burn, or I am naseous, or just a general feeling of ick but it's constant, there is no relife from it.
Except in sleep, which is all I do on my days off now. I sleep ten hour at night and then nap atleast four durning the day and get nothing accomplished, that is when I am not working 8-10 hour shifts. I've been awake maybe three and a half hours and I am ready to go back to sleep!
And I hate eating right now, because it feels miserable to eat anything, but then I wait till I am absolutly starving to eat and feel twice as bad. I wish I could hibernate through this pregnancy.
My husband and I are still arguing about me going back to work after this baby is born. I understand where he is comming from, we need financial security, but I just can't handle work, school and two small children and I refuse to sacrifice school because that just puts me farther behind. I thought we had agreed on it before we even got pregnant but I guess he didn't take me seriously. It doesn't help things are so bad right now eaither.
I looks like we are going to have to give up the house. The bank won't work with us, we eaither have too little, or too much money for their various assiatance programs. And even if we could make payments again, we can't pay the past due, so they could still forclose. So rather than forclosure, we will try to deed the house back to the bank. There is too much wrong with it to sell that we can't afford to fix. (We have a nice big, duck tape covered crack in the tub, that's right, I said duck tape.)
Hours are low at work this time of year to, there is allways a nice weather slump, and it's hard to pick any up. Especially when you have to scramble for a babysitter. So I am not making enough, to cover everything. Hence, my phone is shut off.
And through it all, I am just so exhausted. I could deal better if the life wasn't being sucked out of me. This pregnancy is so much harder than the last one. I'm glad were pregnant now, so our two will only be 4 years apart, but I feel like I have a short time line to try and get our situation together and it's very stressfull.
Now that, that is off my chest, bath, nap or other?
Except in sleep, which is all I do on my days off now. I sleep ten hour at night and then nap atleast four durning the day and get nothing accomplished, that is when I am not working 8-10 hour shifts. I've been awake maybe three and a half hours and I am ready to go back to sleep!
And I hate eating right now, because it feels miserable to eat anything, but then I wait till I am absolutly starving to eat and feel twice as bad. I wish I could hibernate through this pregnancy.
My husband and I are still arguing about me going back to work after this baby is born. I understand where he is comming from, we need financial security, but I just can't handle work, school and two small children and I refuse to sacrifice school because that just puts me farther behind. I thought we had agreed on it before we even got pregnant but I guess he didn't take me seriously. It doesn't help things are so bad right now eaither.
I looks like we are going to have to give up the house. The bank won't work with us, we eaither have too little, or too much money for their various assiatance programs. And even if we could make payments again, we can't pay the past due, so they could still forclose. So rather than forclosure, we will try to deed the house back to the bank. There is too much wrong with it to sell that we can't afford to fix. (We have a nice big, duck tape covered crack in the tub, that's right, I said duck tape.)
Hours are low at work this time of year to, there is allways a nice weather slump, and it's hard to pick any up. Especially when you have to scramble for a babysitter. So I am not making enough, to cover everything. Hence, my phone is shut off.
And through it all, I am just so exhausted. I could deal better if the life wasn't being sucked out of me. This pregnancy is so much harder than the last one. I'm glad were pregnant now, so our two will only be 4 years apart, but I feel like I have a short time line to try and get our situation together and it's very stressfull.
Now that, that is off my chest, bath, nap or other?
